I’m constantly being punished for all the wrong of done to those in the past. The hatred, the lies, the distrust; they have all paved a way right to this very moment. I want to explain this feeling of a heavy burden deep down inside of me. It’s like a weight string to my heart, a restraint compressing on my lungs and a hand squeezing tightly around my throat. There’s no escaping this feeling what so ever. The depression, regret, confusion and sadness cloud my judgment. I can’t control what my mind might tell me to do next because my body is powerless. I’m weak, I have no more strength to rebuild myself upon because I’ve used every bit lingering inside of my liveless soul and empty being. I’m still suffocating here waiting to be saved. Waiting for someone to acknowledge the strength and will power I once had. The old me is remembered by strength, beauty, courage and power. Everything she is, is not whom I have become. I lost site of her quickly as I believed I actually were to gain more strength. Fully aware of my wrong doing I continued on, hoping that one day that woman who I once was would return. Leaving everything for the tomorrow’s and the maybes. If there is no change to be had than my life will perish with no significant value. I beg of you, please find your way…
Find your way back
18 Friday Sep 2015
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